We walk this earth with so much hurt and pain all of us have suffered through many adversities.  We call out and asking for help and not understanding why we are going through something. The toughest things that we go through and have to fight through bring us to a place of awareness that many of us are crying on the inside from something we are battling.  Many of us have watched family members die from cancer, this toxic disease that you wonder why it even exist because the person you love can barely walk or move. It is our job as a caregiver to be the bold ones to bring them through this disease. As a person who was a caregiver from the age of 11 to 17 it taught me that depression and suicide thoughts are real. That we can go through life taking care of people that are suffering but the caregivers always have somethings  they are hiding to become stronger to those around us. You give you your whole heart to the situation and always have those nightmares of them passing away. Sometimes throughout their chemotherapy you question if it fair to put them through this pain? Truthfully that answer is always going to be unknown. None of us are a position in our lives to tell people something that really will not add value to them. They may have their last moments of life left being spent at the hositpal looking at this person and praying they stay here with them. As you squeeze their hand so tight and lay there with them. Sometimes we will always need that hug from that special person that will never be able to come back and hug you.